i came across blogs

and it really help

because i read the right blogs

those that are so inspiring to me

making me wanting to stand up once again

a few lessons learnt from their blogs

- be brave, and not be afraid to be seen for what you have done

*but this time, i'm just tired and i will lift it up to the Highest.*

- how should i cope with all these life (from Jian Ming's blog)

ANS: to begin seeing the things we do as a relationship, a relationship that cannot be neglected nor left alone.

there are many relationships that i need to pull back now

1) relationship with God

2) relationship with B4

3) relationship with Livefeed

4) relationship with people in church

5) relationship with Tuitions

6) relationship with "family"

and many many more

i feel so hyper doing things for God.

somehow, i know what is it missing

somehow, i know waht is to be done to get rid of the feelings and disturbance

i thank Ivan for sharing with me about how our mind works that very day

and nonetheless, i was happy not only because of someone's message, but thinking back, i'm really happy jumping for the joy.

presence of Him, i felt it. i knew it was Him.

tap on the strenght of God

let Him lead you instead of flesh pushing you

even if the world is against you, God is with you

suddenly i just feel like exploding

i've reached my limits

but again, i just feel something is not right.

so before i ever exploding in His house,

let me get the things going

prayer tonight:

allow me to grow in You and to see You once again. break my heart for what break yours. nothing to lose, but peace that was gained.

the fire, allow it to relight.

the old Caden, let it be dead and buried

let the clouds be dismiss

such that new Caden would see the Light

for then he will not lose his way again

as he comes on white horse, like a knight, fighting all the way

in the name of Jesus Christ, i typed this prayer. Amen!

hands raised up. prepared to receive Your power

for none can be compared to You

*break my heart for what breaks Yours, open my eyes for the things unseen, show me how to love like You have loved me*

for i no longer know the love in the world outside